星旋

a man on tv makes me cry ~~

tonight i finally saw "the light" that i desire for a long time.

tonight in "he is a lady" winner of a quater million dollars was annouced to be Alberta. I was so touched by his answer of the question "as a lady, what have you learn from being a man?" he said, men's eagerness to pursue women's outer beauty sometimes can be very hurtful. when men are so devoted in pursuing the outer beauty of a woman, the most important inner beauty is always ignored. from this contest, he have greater admiration for his wife and loved ones in his family.

this reminds me as a woman, i see many of us trying to look good and sexy, and wanting to be loved by men. we forget our loving hearts which matters the most.

when i was whining about being sick and trying to grab on to my man, i not only forgot about my dream, not only lost my soul, my inner beauty, but also my confident outer look. and of course, i also lost my man at the end.

my friend paul makes a good point, " when you think you own this man, it is time u lose him....."

i guess unless i admit that i am a total failure, or i will never grow and i can never start my life again.

now i m still physically and pychologically ill, but greatfully i thank God that i m alive and i am only 24.

i see what i did wrong, it is time that i truely wish him happinss and find the right woman in his life.

women are suppose to be loving and warm, be able to love themselves and love others........

posted by 星旋 @ 9:52 PM