星旋

愛のつらさ

was chatting with him on msn again.......
愛のつらさ is whats in his nickname
my instinct told me that he is in love with somebody, due to the fear of uncertainty he is not making any moves yet..... my instinct was right, i had it confirmed
i thought i might feel alittle bit uncomfortable to hear this, however, i didn't feel a thing. my heart was so calm and clearly feeling his business has nothing to do with me ..... ha
i thought 4.5 years was long, thought i loved him that long.... i guess not......

so what is wrong with me a year ago ???
probably just wounded ego, crying for the failing self.....
what is love ? what is relationship ? do i love me or do i love him ?
stupid questions are hard to answer
you must been though everything to know the truth
after years, look back at that point in life to understand what really happened
good or bad

so what did i learn?
everything i read in the book is true
having a confusing self is true
denying the fact is true
failure is true
so
til this point
what do i do?
the uncertainty is definately the hardness of love
do we withdraw from love due to the fear of uncertainty?
or do we resume?

where am i ?
the repeated pattern doesn't seem so good
where do i go ?
how will it end?
should i continue?

posted by 星旋 @ 11:51 PM